I managed to draggggggggg myself out of my god damn touch-for-a-sec-and-sleep bed :S Bathed and prepared . Off to school , morning's always cold like ____ .
Lessons were (Y) ! Did maths today . Finally after dont-know-how-many-weeks . I managed to force myself to concentrate :p Still can cope . Needa catch up with teacher a lil bitty bitty more .
After english , went down for self-early recess . Mother tongue sucks big time , i wna opt for a change of class . To malay class ^^ Why not ~ I cant even read simple chinese characters laaaaa . Wtfuck . Got punished , sat on the dirty floor *RollsEye360Degrees*
Shortly , Huisian accompany me to suffer on the black floor . She ah she , naughty ah ! Keep open and close '' coffeeshop '' Till Kammie got a lil fucked up ;p Laugh till im a lil dry . Didnt managed to read my second paragraph finish , so need to continue tomorrow . Walaowei , fuck . Need to prepare some hanyupinyin already . )): - Over to Huisian's blog for more info - ;)
Actually kinda twittering with Huisian , Ameline & Joseph yesterday . :p
Chemistry , wento lab to collect Crystal(s) . Mine .. failed . Can say so . Kinda dont look like Crystal can ! ): Whatever , i dont have those Chemistric kinda source in me ^^ So yeah , SocialStudies best ah ! Why ? We have an interesting teacher ! :D & Joseph pimple very big !
Managed to laugh my lungs dry after SocialStudies . Then .. it's Physics . Boring luhhhhhhhhhh . THIS IS THE ONLY LESSON THAT I ACTUALLY FELL ASLEEP . Somehow due to dont know what manpower thinggy . MrIssacNg's no longer teaching us . *Yay-ed silently* After school bused home with Jasperrrr , then wento sleep . So used to sleeping in the afternoon already . DIE :S
Dont you think it's a lil stupid plus a lil retarded to complain and complain and complain . But theres no help ? It's like .. it's no use complaining . )): Awrgh , so miserable inside .
Noah.B : Don't get too upset alright . Those are past . Focus more on your studies now , after which fly back to Singapore asap ): I miss complaining to you . You know ~ Many things happened when you're away ...
IMISSSWEETHEART >':
Things didnt change much though . Still , kinda leaving in the past . Whats
wrong with me . I somehow can't catch up with the future tide . But going
back on how i survived that previous tide )): My heart aches to acknowledge .
The change that the time has shown--I sit with people around me now , but i
still feel so far away . Just don't seem like I am real . This world
is so capacious and I am unsignificant . It's like i left it somewhere so
far . I can't feel a thing >': If tearing every night helps me to sleep . I
wont mind tearing for the following 1 year and then able to sleep peacefully for
the following 10 years ; Why not ?Im so depressed , so wna say everything out . But i just can't
comprehend any of this at all . Why is this filled with such trepidation ? Am I
on the brink of insanity ? Emotional or whatever you call it . I call it
retarded >: VERY MUCH (Y) In the past , everything's fine . Even with
jumping/running . I wish I could understand my own being . To know how to
conquer my '' demons '', I wish i can have my past -- me back .For i laugh to understand people around me . I entertain to make myself feel happy . I sleep to run away from problems . I pretended to be blind , just to avoid seeing needles . I numbed myself , to not feel the pain . Can anyone understand what im going through ?
Is everything so difficult? All these questions have no
answers.
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