Guide me

So wrong .. SO SO SO WRONG .
I cant do this
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But why cant I ? Nonononono , i cant *SlapsFace*
AHHHHHHHHHHHHH , Help )': Guess im thinking too much . Grrrr .. Guess nobody understands wthell im saying anyway . Im feeling very very very down can ? All of a sudden ...
I wna make Mars my home . >:
I wna get knocked down by a car .
I wna swim till i drown .
I wna sleep till i die .
I wna own wings ): So i can fly to Mars .
I wna donate my eyes . ;O So i dont have to see everything that im not suppose to see .
I wna scream till everyone go deaf .
I wna do something to make me no longer me .
I wna make everyone happy .
I wna fufil everyone's wishes .
I wna do something to forget everything .
I wna build a tissue factory so there'll be endless of tissuepapers for me to use .
I wna sing till i go mute .
I wna bleed , somewhere , anywhere .
I can feel the pain in the inside . Pain pain pain )':

I wna jump till i can touch the sky .
I wna run away from pain .
I wna roll to neverland .
I wna walk away from troubles .
I wna dance away from drugs .
I wna cry like i never do .
I wna laugh till i had cramps .
I wna tell you everything i had to say .
I wna tell you how much i yearn for freedom .
I wna do this and that .
I wna talk like a ray-dee-yoo .

See ! So random and weird *SlapsFace* . Awrghhh everything sucks . Ignore me . Nights :'>