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HappyBirthdayMichelleCyy (:
As early as 3am . Took a cab back to chalet . Kinda boringggggg awaiting for the sun to rise yet finding a suitable time to take a nap . For my pillows / blankets get snatched :/ Went swimming in the early afternoon with Michelle , Felicia , Sam , Yanheng & Johnny . Thankfully ! Didnt get any sunburns <: Finally took a nap after that . Baby camed .
Went home early , hence missed Michelle's birthday surprise . Sorry for that & I still owe you a present ;) !
Pretty much worried on the way home . Got many calls in the night ~ Brr , goodness .
Everything went wrong on the 15th . Locked myself up at home , occupying myself by sleeping . For almost the whole day . Happy with the results shown on myself . At least i dont feel so tired anymore . (:
16th (Today ) Busy with my nails in the morning . Up to Precious house in the afternoon . Back home then to 200+ to met Tiffany . Saw Shirley & Her boyf . Sweetheart came after awhile . It's been long sinced i last saw her . Glad she's doing well ? (: Seeyou soon Love .
Back to Precious house . Cover a lil bit on POA . MrsEng's a very funny mama :p Left to Tiffany's house to get Tiffany's book out . Headed to Sixian's house then to 842 . I can say that im pretty much concentrated on my work than the environment / atmosphere around me . So i can say that im less irritated by those kids :S
& Something really bad happen . Got back to where it's supposed to be after awhile . (: Walked home with Precious . Gave up the idea halfway & took a bus home . Really very sorry towards Mommy ): I know whatever i say now is totally of no use anymore . But i promise i'll try my very best to change to your ideal daughter . Im trying very hard by working hard with my studies . I know you didnt give up on me , which i wont . Regardless anything that may happen .
Thinking back , many things had been going on ~ Just need to find the time to really understand what im really trying to acheive by doing all this . What may / may not happen . The time will tell .. Still , i need to remind myself every now & then that im still what i am . I need to do things which im supposed to . Those which arent of anything to me , i will try my best to just ignore it & move on .
Those negative thoughts and thinking . I really need to put it aside . An eye for an eye , a tooth for a tooth . It do happen , without you even realising it . So why not remain positive & just do things that you're supposed to ? Sometimes im really tired of myself . Tired of reminding myself to be a goodgirl . Reminding myself to not give up easily . Tired of everything lil things that i do , which will affect my life . But theres no turning back . Just making sure that from now on , whatever i do . Is either for my friends , family or myself ..
After all these talking , i felt so naggy :/ Currently reading those entries by LaurenPeralta & really envy her for being so nice and easy on herself . Gna drown myself with her entries . BYE
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