Some day . Some night ..

You used to be a part of me . And to me you're my journal .. But ..

Some times .. Some night ...

I hate tossing on my bed thinking about stuffs that i shouldn't be thinking about .

I just wna have a talk with anyone that i can talk to . But nothing's going my way .

I just wna go out and have a cold , lonely walk . But theres nowhere i can walk to .

I just wished i could sleep without having any dreams . But i fail to do so .

I just wna lie on a patch of grass and enjoy the night . But before i can put everything aside.. it's morning .

I just wna be occupied . But each time im free , you'll be all over my head .

I just wna sing a song that reminds me of you . But i start having hiccups and tears all over my cheeks before i even sing .

I just wna stay away from anything that will irritate me . But it just came knocking upon me .

I just wna let you know , how much im allowing this pain to hurt me emotionally . But i lacked the courage to do so .

I just wna let you guys know how much i miss you all . But i'm not sure whether you feel the way i do .

I just wna let you know that i'm not doing well here , cause i've not seen you for long . But we lacked the communication .

I just wna feel you . But i lost the touch .

I just wna let you know , how hard im crying just because i wna talk to you . But time and time again .. I comfort myself under my blanket's embrace & gradually fell alseep . And for tonight , i'm experiencing it once again . Sometimes i wished i could learn to lie to myself . Nights Noah <':