Feign

Those kinda lies you dont wna lie about .
Those kinda words you dont wna talk about .
Those kinda songs you dont wna sing about .
Those kinda love you wished you knew nothing about .
Those kinda embrace you hoped you never think about .

I can't explain how im feeling right now . But i just WISH that very soon .. I'll be able to have a real positive post . Is this the problem season ? Or what i've named September to ''Shagtember'' Yes , most probably .

You're and you're hot then you're this and you're that . I cant jumped emotions as and when you feel like . I dont know the way i feel about you . In the past when i look at you , you're just a .. a friend . Now , it feels like more than a friend . But it looked more like a stranger . why is that so ... About 2 months back , i've let go a number of 'friends' . True , we prolly just dont click like *CLICK* It does bother me in those early weeks , but as time goes by . The feeling starts to fade . I wished i can take it easy and talk about how i feel . But im at loss of words , i dont know what's the best word to describe how im feeling right now . Im messy , im weird , im cold , im unstable . Whats up Cheryl . & This pain in me . THIS PAIN IN ME . That pains my heart , it hurt so much i could barely breath , i could barely concentrate . I wna get pained , cause i cant take this pain in me . And kept having flashbacks of being knocked down by a car ever sinced that nightmare .

Even i I DO feel happy right now , i cant behave happy . I've no idea why . Mummy says i becamed more and more anti-social . I beg to differ . But is that really true ? ): I just cant find another way , how to interact with the outside world . Just living like im not dying .
Peace world . *